YOur Stubborn Love is What Keeps Me ALive and Breathing

Caught again - Your faithless friend
Don't You ever tire of hearing what a fool I've been?
Guess I should pray - But what can I say?
Oh it hurts to know the hundred times I've caused You pain
Though 'forgive me' sounds so empty when I never change
Yet You stay and say 'I love you still'
Forgiving me time and time again

It's Your stubborn love that never lets go of me
I don't understand how You can stay
Perfect love embracing the worst in me
How I long for You - stubborn love

Funny me - Just couldn't see
Even long before I knew You, You were loving me
Sometimes I cry - You must cry too
When You see the broken promises I've made to You
I keep saying that I'll trust You though I seldom do
Yet You stay and say You love me still
Knowing someday I'll be like You

And Your stubborn love, it never lets go of me
I don't understand how You can stay
Perfect love embracing the worst in me
How I long for You - stubborn love

It's Your stubborn love that never lets go of me
I don't understand how You can stay
Perfect love embracing the worst in me
And You never let me go
I believe I finally know
I can't live without Your stubborn love

labay lang...

i just had the most peculiar experience last night.

peculiar because nothing of some sort had i dreamed would ever happen to me..

what a waste though because the spark is long dead already...

had it been present still, i would have fainted at that instant!

still, i managed to smile to myself upon thinking how much i longed for this..

i had waited for two years to have just this moment with you...

i had dreamed you'd ask me those questions you'd aked me last night for months and months..

Wish granted!!

but sadly, the feeling is no longer here...

no more fireworks in your eyes as i look at them for the first time in two years..

no more crazy heartbeats and flushed faces in me as i casually joked around with you...

what a sad story for me...dont you think??

and a sad story for you, too...

because you could have had a love booked especially for you had you payed attention..

you could have had a burning affection exclusively for your eyes..

but tell me how do you awaken a recently dead heart that refuses to live again and get hurt?..

no..i think i will give it a rest already,

because no one can ever forget the bloody valentine you gave me last february..

and no one..not even you can scoop back those tears i shed for you that night...

so now..i just wanna say how thankful i am to be over you..

because i realized what a jerk you are..

and how it feels great to be free again from the tangles that your magic suffocates..

goodbye jiggs..and hello jiggs again...hahaha

....emo kau...

I'll never go far away from you - in reverse!

There's nothing special about you
Nothing whatsoever that's worth my time

You're not actually the nicest person
With that arrogant ambiance and irksome smug face
OOOOH you boil my blood till it evaporates

You always ruin my day
Whenever we're in close proximity
Ive been with you for two years
Can you imagene how painful that is to me??!!

We never actually talked
Just browraises and feeble smiles
But i dont know how you did it
I really dont know why

You captured my heart
I didn't mean it and so did you
You drive me crazy everyday
Coz i cant seem to make you like me too

The worst part of all
Is the one who won your heart
Oh no, not me..though i wished it was
But our classmate also, right in the dart!!

Now im trying to get away
Far away from you as i can
Please dont provoke me to see you
Cause im already dying here, i am

Dont ever come near me
Never ever let me hear your voice
Im trying to forget that i know you
Its hard but i dont have a choice

I hate you more than anything
I hate that your still alive
Coz this overflowing of emotions
Its making me cry...Di na jud ko muduol nmo ui!!!

fLuCtUaTiOnS

the weather today seems to mirror how im feeling right now. i never really intended to feel this way..i mean who would??!!..but it came just as unexpectedly as i never expected it would. It all started just when i felt confident..its as though fate did not want me to be so...fate loves to boss me around and sometimes i get so fed up!!!! i mean...would you want to continue to reach for the finish line when you already know someone will get there first and that you are only doomed to get a glimpse of it but never actually reach it??!!!! how would one endure that feeling, especially when that person is placed in a moment where familiar friendly faces are no where in sight...it just breaks mind to think about it, and believe me..i can think about it especially now that my mind is nothing but a tape that keeps on wallowing in despair and frustrations; refusing to listen to reason because it is already tired of it..not even the nicest book in the world can distrac my already distracted mind...I HATE THIS DAY!!!! now i just realized that i owe fate two days of misery for a close save fate gave to me yesterday..how am i ever going to survive??!!! tell me!! how am i ever going to get pass a day that i know i just cant bear to face..how!!! could hiding possibly solve it..i think not..here i go again with my thinking..hahay...im not making any sense right now, dont you think???!!! oh well...i cant wait for friday when all these would be over..but i better not feel to excited or else fate would interfere again as fate usually would...

hullo

hi there...im kind of a newbie here..

but dont underestimate what i can come up with...

its going to be a blast!!

but for now..i got nada...(laughs)

just..WELCOME TO MY MIND! ur in it for a real deal..