Time to Let Go again

Things are different, things have changed.
Try as I might, there's just no other way.
To move on, to let live, to find love and be happy.
Though I know that I've already lost you,



oh no, you haven't lost me. :'(

To E-R-R is Human, To Forgive is Divine

It's one o'clock and I am still awake
I could hear you from a distance
You're so full of life, of energy, so full of mischief
I knew it was you because that was how I remembered.

It's been a while already that I haven't seen you
I'm not sure you will be coming back
But don't you ever think that I don't ever think of you
Because I do, as if you were here

And I'm still not over you're gone forever
And I'm trying to live each day with a smile
But cold evenings bring back memories
And old photographs never lie

That you were here, here in my heart
You were every missing part
Having you was like having a piece of heaven
Because I know you were sent to me
To make me see all the love and the beauty
And  I know now why I'm here, I understand
Because you were His masterplan

I could say the world will turn
The cars will move, the leaves will fall
And I'll be counting down the Christmases
I know I'll have to spend without you

Your laughter will echo in my sleep
Your thought will flow through my mouth
You don't know the hopelessness I feel
Try as I might, it's too late now

You were always the strong one
I admire you for that
Too bad you're no longer here to be one
But you taught me how to, and I'll do just that
Please remember that I love you so much
My portal to nostalgia
Wherever you may be, please don't ever forget me
Coz I will forever hold on to your memory

Azkaban My Ass

I have come to realize that I am no good at being chained and bound. 

No, I'm not a squirmy prisoner. I'm not a whiner also. You wouldn't even know that I'm trying to escape.

Every day that you keep me captive, I just give you a poker face. 

On exceptional occasions, you might get lucky enough to receive my poisonous nectar.

But usually, you wouldn't even know that I am trying to escape.

I'm going nowhere!

I have come to realize that I am no good at being chained and bound.

And since you wouldn't even know that I am trying to escape,

Brace yourself for one day, I will no longer be there.

Undress for kings

      We've been to OURSELVES for several times already...

                       ..............................................so now let's go to PARADISE.

     I will see YOU there Jumar Calapre. hahaha

Cynicism Can Be Tiring

It was the perfect moment.


I was busy reading, you came at my table.
You were mumbling something, so I looked up at you.
You made a friendly greeting, and asked me for something.


I looked directly at your eyes and noticed your eyes twinkling.
A faint smile clung to your lips, and your eyeballs were doing a saccadic movement
As if you were looking for something inside my eyes.


You blurted out that you wanted something from me.
I asked 'What?' though I already knew you wanted a blank Leave form..
I casually looked away as staring makes me feel uncomfortable.


I kept saying 'What do you want?' but you couldn't remember
I was trying to help you 'til you spoke in a faint whisper
"Ka-pretty nimo oi. You look very pretty."


I couldn't help but smile. Though the feeling sunk only a few hours later.
Heartfelt they may be or not, it still brought the feeling of flattery.
And a new sense of attachment and warmth towards you.


It was indeed the perfect moment, as they happen usually in movies.
But too bad I'm a cynic, and I know you can't fool me. Haha!

Jaded and Scared

At this moment, all I see are blurry colors and flickering lights.

Sometimes, I think they're pretty. At other times, they just make me confused.

Sometimes, they make me feel unique. At other times, I would think I'm just being optimistic.

Sometimes, they make sense. At other times, they're just too deep to fathom.

And sometimes, they tell me they hold my future.

At other times, they just say my future is up to me.

At this moment, all I see are blurry colors and flickering lights.

And sometimes, I just love to sit & stare at them for hours on end.

Indispensible

You know that it is over when no matter how hard you try to patch things up,

when it's formed, something is still wrong.

Thank you for dropping by today and confirming the unlikeliness of "us".

Perspective

Please don't rely so much on me.

You know I have the memory of a goldfish.

My name says so...

Escape

I wanna go somewhere. Far far away where people I'd see would no longer look like me.

I'd take the train, then ride a bus. I'd drop off on crooked pavements. Then rent a bicycle with a basket; I'd wear a huge hat, don on a floral dress with my 5-year-old champagne Chucks. I'd kick some leaves and feel nostalgic 'bout the coffee shops.

I'd probably get lost.....

....But I'd definitely be free.

It Was Like Every Other Valentine

The sound of your voice somehow tells me a message,

"Hey! Look up! I'm here near you. I may not be talking to you, but just so you know I'm trying to make this conversation last longer so I might steal a chance to casually chat with you too."

The warmth of you laughter whispers to me,

"I'm laughing right now because I'm hoping you would join in with the conversation and we could share the joke & connect. I might just get lucky and be introduced to you."

Your heartfelt eye-creasing smile says to me,

"Just so you know, I'm flashing my most charming smile right now. I may not be looking at you, but if you must know, I'm also not seeing the person in front of me. Coz in my mind, I'm imagining that it is you whom I am smiling at".

Your silent stare somehow conveys,

"If I could only have you, I would probably be the happiest person on earth. I would feel complete and secure. Happy and contented. Inspired and optimistic. How I wish we could get our chance someday."

And as you passed by me, I caught a glimpse in the mirror and saw what I was thinking.

Walang Magawa sa Valentines

I'm a very deep person. I ponder on philosophies

of man. I create my ideas though I seldom share 'em out.

But then, I guess that's just how I am.

"A penny for my thoughts. Oh no, I'll sell them for a dollar."

"They're worth so much more after I'm a goner".

I've fallen in love on a one-sided affair. Cupid keeps

on shooting only me, which is very unfair.

Yet, I'm strong and independent. I don't need someone by me.

That is why this Valentines Day, I'm gonna cry my loneliness out

while watching sad romantic movies.

I am not ready yet..

"Yes, I remember the woman. She was right; I did enjoy my work in the carpentry shop. She taught me to talk to things."

"If you had not worked as a carpenter, you would not have been able to place your soul outside yourself, to pretend that it is a crow talking, and to understand that you are better and wiser than you believe", came the

reply. "Because it was in the carpentry shop that you discovered the sacred

that is in all things."

"I always took pleasure in pretending to talk to the tables and chairs I built; wasn't that enough? And when I spoke to them, I usually found thoughts that had never entered my head. The woman had told me that it was because I had

put the greater part of my soul into the work, and it was this part that answered me."

"But then, I was beginning to understand that I could serve God in this way, and the angel appeared, and - well you know the rest."

"The angel appeared because you were ready," replied the crow.

"I was a good carpenter."

"It was part of your apprenticeship. When a man journeys toward his

destiny, often he is obliged to change paths. At other times, the forces

around him are too powerful and he is compelled to lay aside his

courage and yield. All this is part of the apprenticeship.

Elijah listened attentively to what his soul was saying.

"But no one can lose sight of what he desires. Even if there are moments

when he believes the world and the others are stronger. The secret is:

do not surrender."