Jaded and Scared

At this moment, all I see are blurry colors and flickering lights.

Sometimes, I think they're pretty. At other times, they just make me confused.

Sometimes, they make me feel unique. At other times, I would think I'm just being optimistic.

Sometimes, they make sense. At other times, they're just too deep to fathom.

And sometimes, they tell me they hold my future.

At other times, they just say my future is up to me.

At this moment, all I see are blurry colors and flickering lights.

And sometimes, I just love to sit & stare at them for hours on end.

Indispensible

You know that it is over when no matter how hard you try to patch things up,

when it's formed, something is still wrong.

Thank you for dropping by today and confirming the unlikeliness of "us".

Perspective

Please don't rely so much on me.

You know I have the memory of a goldfish.

My name says so...

Escape

I wanna go somewhere. Far far away where people I'd see would no longer look like me.

I'd take the train, then ride a bus. I'd drop off on crooked pavements. Then rent a bicycle with a basket; I'd wear a huge hat, don on a floral dress with my 5-year-old champagne Chucks. I'd kick some leaves and feel nostalgic 'bout the coffee shops.

I'd probably get lost.....

....But I'd definitely be free.

It Was Like Every Other Valentine

The sound of your voice somehow tells me a message,

"Hey! Look up! I'm here near you. I may not be talking to you, but just so you know I'm trying to make this conversation last longer so I might steal a chance to casually chat with you too."

The warmth of you laughter whispers to me,

"I'm laughing right now because I'm hoping you would join in with the conversation and we could share the joke & connect. I might just get lucky and be introduced to you."

Your heartfelt eye-creasing smile says to me,

"Just so you know, I'm flashing my most charming smile right now. I may not be looking at you, but if you must know, I'm also not seeing the person in front of me. Coz in my mind, I'm imagining that it is you whom I am smiling at".

Your silent stare somehow conveys,

"If I could only have you, I would probably be the happiest person on earth. I would feel complete and secure. Happy and contented. Inspired and optimistic. How I wish we could get our chance someday."

And as you passed by me, I caught a glimpse in the mirror and saw what I was thinking.

Walang Magawa sa Valentines

I'm a very deep person. I ponder on philosophies

of man. I create my ideas though I seldom share 'em out.

But then, I guess that's just how I am.

"A penny for my thoughts. Oh no, I'll sell them for a dollar."

"They're worth so much more after I'm a goner".

I've fallen in love on a one-sided affair. Cupid keeps

on shooting only me, which is very unfair.

Yet, I'm strong and independent. I don't need someone by me.

That is why this Valentines Day, I'm gonna cry my loneliness out

while watching sad romantic movies.

I am not ready yet..

"Yes, I remember the woman. She was right; I did enjoy my work in the carpentry shop. She taught me to talk to things."

"If you had not worked as a carpenter, you would not have been able to place your soul outside yourself, to pretend that it is a crow talking, and to understand that you are better and wiser than you believe", came the

reply. "Because it was in the carpentry shop that you discovered the sacred

that is in all things."

"I always took pleasure in pretending to talk to the tables and chairs I built; wasn't that enough? And when I spoke to them, I usually found thoughts that had never entered my head. The woman had told me that it was because I had

put the greater part of my soul into the work, and it was this part that answered me."

"But then, I was beginning to understand that I could serve God in this way, and the angel appeared, and - well you know the rest."

"The angel appeared because you were ready," replied the crow.

"I was a good carpenter."

"It was part of your apprenticeship. When a man journeys toward his

destiny, often he is obliged to change paths. At other times, the forces

around him are too powerful and he is compelled to lay aside his

courage and yield. All this is part of the apprenticeship.

Elijah listened attentively to what his soul was saying.

"But no one can lose sight of what he desires. Even if there are moments

when he believes the world and the others are stronger. The secret is:

do not surrender."